[Protect them by staying alive. He tries the thought on for size and can't quite figure it out. He helps his friends by staying alive, yes. There's a sometimes-surprising amount of people who would be upset if he was to die.]
How does my staying alive help? Unless it's the target on my back that's... distracting?
[He's gotten better at dealing with the hate directed his way, and sometimes knowing that his being alive makes their day worse makes his better. So many have tried to kill him. They've all failed, and most of them are dead instead.]
I've gotten particularly good at still drawing breath. Even when it's hard to breathe.
[Like now, as he finishes filling one pack with shaky hands and closes it up before moving on to the second and frowning at it. What else would help? They may be at the end of what will really make a difference and he stills, swallowing hard. It's out of his hands as soon as he hands the packs over. There's nothing else he can do and it's another layer of helplessness.
Anders looks over at Teren.]
I need to find a way to secure the mages against a repeat of this. A cure, a return to Darktown to... to save who I can, and then... Maker, there's always more.
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Date: 2018-02-10 08:50 am (UTC)How does my staying alive help? Unless it's the target on my back that's... distracting?
[He's gotten better at dealing with the hate directed his way, and sometimes knowing that his being alive makes their day worse makes his better. So many have tried to kill him. They've all failed, and most of them are dead instead.]
I've gotten particularly good at still drawing breath. Even when it's hard to breathe.
[Like now, as he finishes filling one pack with shaky hands and closes it up before moving on to the second and frowning at it. What else would help? They may be at the end of what will really make a difference and he stills, swallowing hard. It's out of his hands as soon as he hands the packs over. There's nothing else he can do and it's another layer of helplessness.
Anders looks over at Teren.]
I need to find a way to secure the mages against a repeat of this. A cure, a return to Darktown to... to save who I can, and then... Maker, there's always more.